a week back i found out that my boyfriend had, 5 months ago, slept with some girl – twice. the mixed emotions are driving me insane. the one moment, im working on get back together plans and the next i hate him with my whole being. i too had decided that i would never tollerate cheating but yes, you are right, being in the situation gives a whole new meaning to your normal. there are times when i cant breath esp. when i imagine how this has messed things up even for future me. im 22 and in my head by say 24, i would be married and well the fact that he too went on and on about marriage told me that that would be a reality.

im not sure ow to carry on at times.